Thursday, February 16, 2012

I Choose Joy.....

One in six.

One in six couples will experience infertility at some point during their TTC journey. This month marks the one year anniversary of when we began trying to conceive.

Photo by Orange Sheep Photography
My husband and I are facing the heartbreak of male factor infertility. Approximately 40% of all  infertility cases are attributed to the man, and we were told that we would likely never conceive naturally without treatment or medical intervention. Oh ye of little faith!  I keep reminding myself that ALL things are possible with God.

 But Abram said, “Sovereign LORD, what can you give me since I remain childless and the one who will inherit my estate is Eliezer of Damascus?” And Abram said, “You have given me no children; so a servant in my household will be my heir.” Then the word of the LORD came to him: “This man will not be your heir, but a son who is your own flesh and blood will be your heir.” He took him outside and said, “Look up at the sky and count the stars—if indeed you can count them.” Then he said to him, “So shall your offspring be.” Abram believed the LORD, and he credited it to him as righteousness.

-Genesis 15:2-6

Abraham believed the Lord, he trusted beyond all reason, and God fulfilled his promise. I am trying my best to trust God each day that he will provide a child for our family in His perfect timing. At first feelings of bitterness and despair  consumed me regarding our situation, but today I am choosing joy rather than frustration and negativity.   I am choosing to seek God and His kingdom first, believing that in His faithfulness our needs and desires will be met. It's a tough road....

I'm praying for patience and peace.

Photo by Orange Sheep Photography

At the same time, my husband and I know we want to adopt someday. Ever since the summer after my freshman year of college I have felt called to adopt.  My heart is with international adoption, and we have been researching the topic a lot lately and praying about when we should start the process. We always thought we would have biological children first, and then adopt later on down the road. Perhaps.....God has other plans.

Photo by Orange Sheep Photography
 As you can see, we have a lot of unknowns and big decisions to make, and we would be so grateful if you would keep us in your prayers. Thankfully, we have been able to seek treatment with a urologist and as of today we received news that things are improving little by little. (Thank you, Lord!) I debated whether I should post this for all the world to see, but I feel like I owe it to you, dear readers, to know why at times the Roost has been rather quiet lately.